Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I always imagined I would finish High School go to college while living at home, get my degree and a steady career, then get married and have kids. Somewhere along the way that all changed. Maybe it was because I suddenly wasn't comfortable living in my home with my parents, or maybe because I ran into the man of my dreams, or maybe I just had no idea what life was going to throw at me. So here I am, four years after graduating high school. I am married, a stepmom, working full time, and going to school. My Husband and I work to afford our home that we enjoy so much together. But juggling everything is difficult. I want a baby desperatley, but sometimes I question myself, could I handle one more thing? But then I think, people do it all the time. And who is to say that when I have a child of my own that I will care about getting a degree? The more I think about it, the more I would like to be a stay home mom, running five kids to school everyday and things of the like. But I have to be a mom to do that. And stay home. So right now I just work and go to school and everything else to keep my mind occupied. Thinking too much, is just as bad as not thinking at all, I think. So what do you do? Do you go to school or work or have kids? Or all of the above? How have your views on life changed as you have gotten older and gotten married and had children? Mine have change alot, and continue to change everyday. But how do you know what's right? Do you just "feel" it, or go with the flow? Or do you make it happen?
Posted by Sarah at 11:08 AM